Summary of the Day

I am learning that I may not be on the right track. I think I need to find some other area of my field to explore. I love telling stories, but man... I am too slow. The stories are good... at least that's me talking in my mind... but i take way to long to produce them. No one will want to hire me like this... maybe they will, but they sure won't keep me. How do I get faster? If practice doesn't do it, I don't know what will.

I will continue to learn from those around me and if it happens that daily news isn't for me, then it isn't for me, and I must pursue something else.

One thing I can say about myself is this: I need time for a story to sink into my mind, swirl around, settle a bit... And then I can shake the information up again and come up with a coherent, well written piece.

Also... I don't perform well when rushed.

Is this just how I am wired, or can this change?

I am confused... yet again. But part of working through the confusion is coming to a conclusion. I'm just not there yet.

I'm lonely and I miss my family.